We've let ourselves down so many times this season.
We saw Super Kevin Campbell in the TV studio before the match on Monday night, keeping positive and calling this a must-win game against Brighton to keep our season alive. And then you see the Everton line-up and realise there's not much you can do.
Funnily enough, it reminds me of my day when we were playing six or seven defenders on the pitch.
That was our full strength side, mind, and not enforced!
But you're just wondering what we can do, who can win us the game? You're hoping for a bit of magic from James Rodriguez, or someone else given the opportunity to step up to the plate.
On paper, you think we should win that game. But this season we've proven that against sides below us in the table we haven't been able to maximise our points.
Seamus Coleman said the same thing, every team has got injuries. It just shows that we're missing quality in the squad. It should be an alarm call for Marcel Brands and the recruitment team.
We know we've got injuries, but that's going to happen next season as well. We need to bring in players who, when we've got injuries, can bring the quality to win us football games.
We can manage one or two injuries here and there, but I think it's happened far too often this season - and it'll happen again next season, injuries don't just disappear.
The lads that are coming in might do ok for one or two games but, consistently, they're just not good enough. Again it's a disappointing result for us.
Now we've got to head into another big game on Friday, which already would have been another must-win - but how many times have we said that this season?
We're still there or thereabouts. Jokingly, you can say it's the sign of a good team not losing away from home!
The thing is, we've seen our levels. We've seen how we can play when we're at full strength and know the quality we've shown.
But there's a few cracks here and there. The strength in depth just doesn't have the required quality right now, and that's going to take time under Ancelotti and the coaching staff to put right.
All the successful teams above us have personnel that let them play in different formations, different systems, allows for different game-management. We haven't got that right now.
Moving forward, if we want to be in Europe, we need that strength in depth. We don't want to be embarrassed, like we have been in recent times.
That will be the aim, but Monday night just highlighted the quality that we've really got. It's unfortunate.
The players had a go and Seamus says all the right things afterwards which is great, but at the end of the day us as fans want to see us winning football games.
Dominic Calvert-Lewin being out I wouldn't quite say was a Romelu Lukaku situation, but he's played so many games for us and has been so instrumental that, like Lukaku, when he was missing we hardly knew how to play a game of football.
Our number nine was out, did anyone step up to the plate? No. In one way, it's a credit to Calvert-Lewin as to how strong his season has been.
But, to be successful, you need to play without key players.
We want to push for Europe, that's the aim and that won't change until it's mathematically out of our hands. We're still there, but we're making it difficult for ourselves.
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We've had so many opportunities this season to be in the mix and we've let it go, with all different types of means.
As the season comes to an end it looks like it's getting more and more difficult for us and we might fall short, which would be disappointing considering the way the season started for us.
But it's there and that's what is disappointing about Monday night. We know we're not full strength, but go out and try to do something. Put yourself in the manager's head for next season.
Against Brighton away, we didn't see it. Hopefully now until the end of the season, we see them fighting for it.
If we fall short, we fall short. But let's have a go at pushing for them targets, don't sit back and hope for the results. Be proactive and play positive football.
We can't have regrets at the end of the season, I think that's my message to the players and the coaching staff.
We've got an opportunity, it might be slim, but let's have a good go at it. Let's show our quality as players.