TEEN Mom 2 star Leah Messer claimed she attempted suicide by driving off a cliff amid her drug addiction battle.
In an excerpt from Leah’s upcoming memoir, Hope, Grace & Faith, exclusively obtained by The Sun, the MTV star felt “suffocated” by her ongoing issues when she got into her car one night.
Leah, 27, wrote how the guilt of her daughter Ali’s muscular dystrophy diagnosis, her addiction to pills and the breakdown of her second marriage was too much for the then-23-year-old to handle.
She explained the book, which will be released on May 5, how her father, who was living with her at the time and struggled with drug addiction himself, gave her Lortab, a painkiller, to “just take the edge off.”
The next thing she remembered was driving down Mink Shoals Hill in West Virginia with her foot “pressed down on the gas.”
The reality star, who is mom to twins Ali and Aleeah, 10, with ex-husband Corey Simms, and Addie, 7, with ex-spouse Jeremy Calvert, said in the book that she could “barely see the road through the tears” as she checked behind her to see if her daughters’ car seats were empty.
Leah claimed she watched as the needle on the speedometer went from “80...to 90...to 110 mph.”
She wrote: “There’s a steep cliff off the side of the road just up ahead. It would be so easy to drive my car over the edge. Then it would all be over. No more worries. No more failure. No more pain.”
She penned that “everyone would be better off.”
Leah then said in the memoir that she instead slowed down and pulled over to the side of the road.
She continued: “A lifetime of tears comes pouring out of the deepest part of my soul. I cry so hard I wonder if I’ll ever be able to stop. Then a thought cuts through the deafening static in my brain: My daughters need me.”
She realized it would be “selfish” to abandon them.
When Leah returned home, she had a message from executive producer Larry Musnik.
She said he called because they were “concerned” of footage they had of her driving in her car.
Leah explained in the book how he had been trying to get her to go away to a treatment facility in Arizona.
She wrote: “I kept saying no because I thought I could handle things on my own, but now I wasn’t so sure. I had to do something because I had gone from anxious and depressed to suicidal.”
In the end, Leah chose to enter treatment.
Leah was often caught on camera slurring her words and falling asleep on Teen Mom 2.
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Despite the troubling scenes, she denied drug abuse at the time, and claimed she entered rehab for depression and anxiety.
She first admitted to drug use during a 2018 podcast and then again in the memoir.
She explained in the book that she had been given painkillers Tylenol 3, Lortab and Percocet after a botched spinal tap during labor with youngest daughter, Addie, in 2013.
If you or someone you know is affected by any of the issues raised in this story, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-TALK (8255) or text Crisis Text Line at 741741.
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